I found this quote I had written in an old journal of mine. My computer's been acting up so I've been forced to do what I said the whole point of not having cable was - to read and write.
"Love is not a habit, a commitment or a debt. It isn't what romantic songs tell us it is - love simply is. No definitions. Love and don't ask too many questions."
I disagree. I think we all have a photograph of love in our minds, a snapshot of how our hearts function.
What is love to you?
What does it feel like?
What does it sound like?
What would it look like?
Are we even supposed to perceive it in such figurative dimensions?
I don't easily give my heart out. I've been in love three times. I'm not even sure if I'd call those last two real love - more like infatuation gone wild. However, all loves are indeed learning experiences.
Some people say love is a verb - I say love is when your soul has been ignited on fire.
It's intense, it's full of depth. it's the merging of two hearts and two souls. It's wanting to know every facet of another human being - the good and the bad, the true and the imaginary. It's diving into another person's soul and wrapping yourself up in it. It's transformative. You have a natural understanding and accept them for every single part of who they are - past and present. It's the feeling that you are going home - it's comfort. You have to be with that person; it's not the quantity that matters as much as the quality. You want to stay in that moment of peace and embracing forever. You desire to express every intricate idea and thought about life, about love, about you, about them, about your dreams, your hopes, your desires, your past, your present, your feelings, your fears. It's the feeling that you would go to battle for a person and not seek or demand anything in return. It encompasses trust and because of that, it doesn't cage you in but allows you to float freely and come back together like two pieces of a puzzle. There's a raw passion to love that is often diminished by the chores of daily life; a passion that only you can keep pulsating by taking the time to step out of the mundane world into the one you create with your love.
This sentiment, which lies within me, is probably easily picked up by others and is probably why I'm still single. A lot of people just don't do intense - it's a somewhat scary quality to deal with. Most people like simple and easy. I'm glad I wrote that. It's nice to just admit and embrace that I'm not "simple and easy". No one may have the same ideas as I do but hopefully, I will find someone who understands it.
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